Panic Attack

 

if I hadn't been at work Sunday night

I would have just tried to sleep it off

 

 

they come out of nowhere

one minute I was performing an exam

the next

I was shaking, puking and sweating

good thing a coworker was with me to take over

 

since I was working in ER

the staff took me too an empty room

to look me over...

I was signed in as a patient and the tests began

my EKG concerns everyone

until they compare it to one from 5 years ago

 

 

I had all the symptoms

on the above list

apart from the last three

 

I also had low blood sugar

unheard of for me

must be my change in eating

I knew I should have had a doughnut

from the breakroom that night

 

so while it was

"just a panic attack"

I hope to never have one again

this is the worst I've ever had

spent half the night in the ER and glad of it

I hate being a patient

but Sunday night it was where I needed to be

 

 

yesterday I slept all day

today I'm dizzy but sitting up

working in clearing the mental fog

 

I know all the breathing tricks

to make them easier...didn't work this time

maybe because my 02 sats were

consistently under 90

now I have to go for more tests...

 

the only ones happy about this

(when I finally got home at 4 am)

are the cats

they had a whole day to sleep with me

purrs all around

 

Tomorrow will be a better day