Monday, November 23, 2015

Climbing Out

 
I have lived with depression for a long time
mostly keeping the worst of it at bay
This year "it got me"
and hung on for months and months
if you've never experienced clinical depression
count yourself among the blessed
medication and therapy don't make a dent
 
 

 
this is how I'm able to function
 
 
truer words...
 
 
For two days in a row
I feel it lifting...
 
I'm sharing this now
to remind everyone before the holidays
that among you will be a few depressed friends and relatives
please just be there for them
don't try to cheer them up
don't ask why they are depressed
don't argue with them about being depressed
 
 
I'm grateful
to be climbing out of this abyss
 
 


16 comments:

Michelle said...

Thank you dor sharing. Happy to hear that you have had two good days. It takes great courage to face depression and many times, it takes baby steps to get out of it and LOTS of support and medical help. Here is to two more great days!

Pam said...

Oh Kelley. I'm so sorry. I feel your pain. I know it first hand. I've noticed myself doing better lately, too. Praying that the weight of the dark cloud will fully lift for you. Take care.

Kim said...

Kelley, this is a perfect description. I am printing the Eeyore cartoon as a reminder. Last year at this time I said I was OK. I was not. I look back on it now and wonder why I didn't reach out for help or talk to someone. I got through it but it wasn't good.
Hugs, Kim

Jacque. said...

Thoughts and prayers for you. xo

Lori from Notforgotten Farm said...

we love you. we are here for you. we accept you just the way you are.
xoxoxox
L

jan said...

I understand Kelley. Going through the same thing right now and hoping against hope that this new doc can help me dec 2. Have never experienced anything like this before. Started this summer.

WoolenSails said...

I am glad you are feeling a bit better and you have been through a lot this year.
I love your eeyore anology, that is such a great way to get others to understand.

Debbie

jan said...

I'm very glad to hear that you are beginning to feel the depression lift. ...jan

acorn hollow said...

thinking of you
Cathy

Rugs and Pugs said...

I hope things continue to improve.
Hugs and prayers,
Lauren

Angela Tucker said...

I completely understand. Life is difficult enough, but being a caretaker wears on the soul. You are always waiting for the worst.

I hit a low a few months ago, and was very hesitant to share. I am one of those that puts on the happy face...it didn't work this time. I think of depression as tiny wisps of black, dancing at the edge of my life. Things are better now, but I keep focused, try to exercise daily, and eat right. Does it always work? Nope...but I feel better today than yesterday.

I am glad that you are starting to have good days.

audrey said...

Giving so much of yourself to others is a huge drain. Glad you're having a couple better days. Hang in there!

denise said...

i know how you feel. i lost my daddy in 2013,my mother in 2014, my daughter, son in law and grandkids got transferred to germany in june and then i just lost my brother in oct. the light that is keeping me going right now is that my daughter is having twins in july. germany here i come!!!!!!!!!!!

The Eveningstitcher said...

Love you Kelley....God Bless you...having a child that suffers with depression I could only offer love and like your posts state....they're not "OK"..peaks and valleys....

Orange Sink said...

I am sending my heartfelt love and admiration for you Kelley... you do so much for others despite feeling the weight of this disease that is so serious. We can only hope that someday there is a real cure and full understanding of depression. Being able to talk about it openly and share is a gift you may be giving to thousands who read your wonderful writings!
Blessings and big hugs!!
Cathy G

quiltsbycheri said...

I'm glad too you are climbing out of your abyss....sending you my love and admiration for sharing your pain and helpful advice for all those who have family or friends feeling beyond low during the holidays. XO